So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited.
-2 Corinthians 12:7
I keep coming back to the same issue over and over again. It wrecks me, shatters my heart into a million and one pieces. It causes the ground beneath my feet to become soft and I feel like I’m sinking with no hope of getting free.
And each time I come to the same conclusion; there are just some things which I cannot change. No amount of begging or pleading or praying has resulted in anything permanent, any wisdom to remove this thorn. Then I get over it, at least until the next time someone throws it in my face.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
- 2 Corinthians 12:9
This verse, this sufficient grace has been with me a long time. I once painted it on the wall above my bunk in the dorm room at university in glow-in-the-dark paint. It was the last thing I read each night as I drifted off to sleep. And still it’s such a small consolation to me.
Oh how I wish I could boast. I wish that I could see the good that God can work through this thorn, because so far I only see devastation.